Current mood:	but i didnt shoot no deputy
Current music:	i shot the sheriff- bob marley

if this is it
death is something that has been a constant fascination. 

its not an obsession really, more like an interest on how everythin will go down when the time comes. do i go down ridiculously, tragically, thrillingly or worse, unnoticed. there are instances where im in a place and i think to myself--- of all the places there is no way i would want to be found dead here.
there are so many stupid ways to die. 

death from crossing the street. tripping and fallin into a something sharp. smashing your car into a wall. death on collision with a drunken driver. death cause you swerved. death from a jeepney. death from a truck. electricution. death over a cliff. death from a nail infection. death  from peanuts ( for those with fatal food allergies). death on impact to the head from a golf ball. being accidentally shot. death over a cellphone. death by a suicide attempt of another.

there are instances when you trade in life in exchange for something. the time i was in bambang i thought to mysef, if i die here, there is no way i want to be found dead in bambang. or then again, i probably wouldn't be found at all. crossing a tiny side street in katipunan going to a drinking session. walking along anonas for thrift stores. walking to a jollibee. so many occassions i dont want to end up dead in. its annoying to think that you've lived so long and gone through so much, all to end for a blimp. a tiny mistake you may not even have committed. death because someone else was careless. because someone else had disregarded a traffic light. because someone didnt take into consideration the consequences of their actions. 

i dont want to die a stupid death. its one thing living in misery, its another dying from the misery of a complete stranger. some people are so careless, or even just plain dumb. it pays to be responsible. 

it really annoys me that some people could stab, shoot or beat someone to death for a cellphone, a wallet or a bag. its just dumb. these people who commit heinous crimes dont think through the consequences. it is not only an offense to the victim, but to the victims family... everyone is born of someone, is a friend of someone, and with regards to the monetary cycle, is a benefactor of someone else. criminals complain of money and how the system is unfair, but commiting such crimes is unfair too. to take away a strangers life for a temporary fix of something is the dumbest way to die. 

what is justice. 

in this country, if you kill someone on acount of self-defense, do you walk free.